Holiday update

Holidays coming up,  I need to go christmas shopping but I need to come up with a christmas list of what to get everyone.  I need to get something for my family and patrick and even dan.  After all they are a part of my life lol.  Kuya Bodgies and my dad are in the phillppines oh and roen too.  I think Ate Karen is going soon too?  It's because my lolo's 90th birtday was last month, that's why everyone went back to the Philippines.  I need to go so badly and get away from this freaking cold weather.  It's been so long sice I've written on this blog.  I do have a lot to say on my mind, but I just don't feel that need to write my thoughts down anymore.  I don't even use my diary that much anymore either.  I am starting to like this night shift though.  I have work at 3pm so I get to sleep in and sleep late.  I can sleep at 4am and still get my 8 hours of sleep haha pretty sweet huh?  Oh gosh I just remembered my finals are next week! But I'm not sweatin' it because I know they will be online haha.  But for real, I need to start taking school seriously.  Like actually start studying! haha. Gosh starting next quarter I really gotta start focusing in class and take it seriously, cuz I normally don't.  I don't know why, I'm good academically but I just don't like paying attention unless its really caught  my interest, or it's something new. Oh well, I need to push myself even harder. 

Also, on the 16th will be me and Patrick's 10 months together.  Our relationship is strong.  I'm really happy being with him.  I'm also glad to have someone for the holiday season.  I would hate to be alone.  It's getting close to our 1 year.  I'm excited, I can't stop thinking about the first time we got together.  It always make me smile.  How things just fell together, how we came to be.  I think it's pretty sweet with minor dramas in between.  It's funny because everyone is asking me when they will be invited to our wedding day haha.  It hasn't even been a year yet and people are asking when we are getting married.  It really makes me happy though that everyone knows how in love we are.  I really can't wait till the day we are engaged hehe.  I will be the happiest girl in the world!  I would tell the whole world that I am in love with him.  I would say yes immediately.  I would love to spend the rest of my life with him.  He truly does complete me.  I see no other.  He is my love.  If I wanted the moon he would grab it.

Frustrated

Right now I'm feeling very frustrated at Patrick right now.  I don't  like how he talks down on me sometimes, like when he talks to me like I'm some little child.  Like when I asked him what kind of pizza did he order? He replys saying "Pizza" then when I asked yeah I know what kind, he says " a large pizza". UGH like I hate having to ask more questions just to get the answer I want to hear.  I already know it's pizza and what size. I want to know what KIND. It's stupid things like that which I hate.  Is it terrible when sometimes I don't want to live here?  Sometimes I wish I had my own place with other friends or just back at my parents.  I don't know I guess it's because I want no I need space.  But I don't want to just get up and drive off and go some where for space only to drive back to his place.  Like sometimes I want to go and stay somewhere else for space.  Like I need a day or two of space not a couple hours. I want to sleep over some where to be on my own, to relax, and think without anyone bugging me.  Is it bad that lately I have been having the craving for a cig?  I know it is, but I don't know why I want it.  Probably because I feel stress/frustated lately.  I hate being here sometimes.  I want to be on my own.....I want to leave....

Update on my life

Gosh, it's been a minute since I last been here to update. A lot has changed since then. To start off, I moved out. (DUN DUN DUN!) lol. Surprise surprise....but yall prolly knew that I would eventually.  My parents were killing me with the shit policies they had over me.  I now live with my boyfriend and his bestfriend.  My boyfriend's name is Patrick, oh and hes not asian! Hes American haha.  We work together at Gaylord National Hotel in MD. It took a while to get used to being far away from everyone again.  I live right by where Johnny and Crystal used to live.  Too bad they moved :[ Anyway, I work at the front desk and I hate it, been working there for a lil over a year now. But the job pays well..really well.. lol Anyways im getting tired of writing.. This reminds me why I dont use xanga as much now, cuz im too lazy to jot down what im feeling hahaha.

6 months & still going <3

So yesterday was me and Paul's 6th month of being together. I'm very surpried we lasted this long and am very happy and satisfied to be with him. We spent our half year mark with his cousin's birthday bbq celebration at his cousin's place. We ate a lot of food, I was stuffed. I got to meet his cousins family and friends. They seem to like me, which maks me happy hehe. Before a lot of guest came, paul was outside on the backyard with his cousins and friends. I called him over to come inside and that I wanted a hug from him haha. I then told him I had something for him. He was totally surprised! He told me I didn't have to and why did I get him something. I presented a 3 page letter to him. I told him to read it quietly because I didn't want him reading it out loud while other people were walking around. The letter pretty much said how much I was glad to have him in my life and that we got together. I confessed how I truelly felt for him. Expressed how I felt about all the things we've been through, all the hardships and about the future as well. He felt touched. But I wasn't done yet with the surprise. After he read the letter I told him I had something else for him. He was again shocked and said I didn't have to lol. I presented him a blue box with a white ribbon tied bow on it. (Yeap, you guess it...from Tiffany & Co) I gave him a sterling silver interlocking rings necklace. I got him real good on keeping it on the Down Low haha. The look on his face after I gave him his gifts were unforgetable. I believe I made him really happy. And I showed him how much I really do love him. I wrote him a letter. I got him a gift even though he wasn't expecting anything. I really love him. And I hope we last a very long time. =] Some people think I'm crazy for giving a gift on the 6th  month mark, but to me it really means a lot. Out of all my 8 relationships (yeah thats a lot lol) Paul is the only one that I lasted this long with. The rest lasted only 2 months. It's amazing. I never thought I would last this long with a guy. I believe we could last a long time. I can finally say that I am truelly happy. Happy to be in a relationship with a guy. Especially the one I got now. I don't even think of anyother guy now. I don't want to be with anyone else but him. He is the only one that I give my heart, body, and soul.

Love sure does feel great....even if it tends to hurt sometimes..

My life has been pretty busy lately. I’m working now and going to school. I really don’t have any time for anyone anymore, but it must be the same with everyone else because I barely see anyone either haha. Yes, I miss you cyd! Anyways, my busy schedule also cuts down how often I can see paul :[ because of the damn snow and rain I couldn’t see him yesterday. Which was pretty awful for the both of us since Wednesday I usually go out to his cousins place and we chill. Well school is going okay. I’m taking all night classes. I’m still trying to get used it. Although I’m usually so sleepy by the time class starts haha. Oh well. This is my update for now. Till then…Chao~